2025 Novemeber
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November already. Last month was eventful. I improved my workflow a crazy bit and have progress on gen.new
This month is the month it actually releases. I want to get to cadence of at least 20 deploys a day just from my own code in gen.
Not talking about the team I will in time be building this project out with. Deploy daily, deploy often is really the thing that matters in success of the project.
Plus sharing progress, marketing and all the basic stuff like affiliate program, good flows etc.
Excited for the month.
I think I should be more open in this journal & I will try be more open and vulnerable here without complaining, ever. Complaining is for the weak, serves no one.
In last month I mentioned I want to build a system that will constantly stream my screen to a server and I will try start building that soon.
Because firstly I want to actually stream myself working on things. But I also want to manage how I work. I am trying to lead a life where not a single second gets wasted.
And it's not that easy. Because even if I work on things, that does not mean I am wasting time because I can be working on more impactful things at that second.
As I can't change my location to SF where the real action is happening, I have to be mindful in how I spend time in the place I am. Currently Dubai, but in 3 days Limassol, Cyprus.
Maybe it's my middle life crisis or something but I do think I wasted enough time that I simply can't waste a second more as I am already behind.
Yes, my workflow is insane and I can write code (prompts) but it's not enough. I still don't have world changing products that I've built. Just ideas still.
There is also this thing where this journal has like an audience of probably 1 person a month (if that). So in some way, this is basically therapy of my mind for me (only now I do it publicly).
Previously, I just wrote in my private journal. Lock in or similar. Perhaps pathetic but it's nice to sometimes put my thoughts on canvas so to speak.
I am sure others just roll thoughts in their mind but in my experience it's nice to keep my mind free of these things. All ideas/tasks I think of, get notted down either in Things or Linear.
All my worries (unless it's something actually personal and private) are going to be shared here. I am in some ways excited to actually kind of not care as much what other people truly think of me.
I just write the code, do the things and share some things. And see what will happen. I realize I am so bad at many things that is not writing prompts or automating my mac that it's kind of sad.
I want to get better at photos so will share a lot more on IG & other networks. Even if that work is rough. I have to just improve with time.
For code, I have plan of building the products ofc but I want to accelerate the impact heavily. I already made some great bets on tech I want to use and will share more on it with time. But I genuinely want to get to 10,000 commits a month mark.
That's approximately 330 commits a day, which is def doable with enough automation that I already started building. Exciting month, genuinely. Will finally ship a real fucking product and go from there. The ideas behind gen.new esp with context blocks are life changing, genuinely.
Have this crazy idea where as I am writing here, it actually go live instantly. Via Jazz or similar. Kind of like a draft thing, there is no real need for this ofc but its kind of cool how technically it is possible.
Like I can legit write something and every single character will go 'prod'. Like Marauder's Map.
This reminds me, I need to get LA prod release this month too. Fkk. Ok writing this at night so tomorrow will do the things.
I might add some time stamps to these entries once I have more custom stack for this journal. As above was at night but now is the next day. Amazed ever day how Nils is so freaking good. It's actually mind boggling.
Today is the last day of suffering in Dubai, had to drive to bank to open bank account for the company. I dislike cars so much its unreal.
Now in hotel. Listening to Nils, going to grab a coffee and sit down and go slow with code in gen. Igor finished auth, I need to check on that and get everything in order.
I also realized that I will optimize hard for iteration speed over just pure perf. i.e. I thought I would use tauri for desktop apps, fuck that, will be electron.
Same goes for f CLI. Was originally going to make it in TS, then Rust. Now will make it in Go.
My main languages going forward are TS, Go, Swift & Python. I plan to use Rust only where absolutely necessary. And I plan to write C++ mostly for nitro modules. Adjusted my binds accordingly.
Zig, MoonBit, Mojo & Elixir are neat languages too ofc and will check them out with time but they are not main thing. So those binds are further away.
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Absolutely love my life, despite how messy it is. The failures, the mistakes, it's deeply motivational to prove everyone wrong, including myself.
Biggest lesson this year is to say no to things aggressively.
I am also never travelling in my entire life until I at least make 100 million. It's so tiring and is genuinely a waste of time. Need to lock in and that's it. My last trip this year, forced to by these stakeholders..
I genuinely can't wait to just do my sports, exercise and code non stop. Literally nothing in my life matters this much as building sick products and fast.
Eventually getting to SF to do it with people who think the same way. 2 more days of this suffering in Dubai & I am home.
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I realize it's so hard to not complain. Already failing hard..
Anyway. Life is a mess but it's a wonderful chaotic mess.
There is few tricks I've learned over the years to deal with really tough fuck ups. One of them is to turn on this song and just let go of the past and try focus on the now and future.